Time Flys Away

Time is like a dew drop on a leaf
When the sun shines it's gone
There are so many dew drops all over
Not too many people notice them
The cycle repeats so many times
We seem to take it for granted

Then we hit a dry spell in life
Wonder where the time has gone
Fall is slowly fading to winter
Then the dew drops turn to frost

As we sit by the stain glass window
To warm our old bones by it's light
We see our world reflected in colors
Color purple reminds me of my beloved spouse
It sad to say now our color we reflected to one another

Fire steaming red anger about stupid things
Those little problems turned into a black hole
Absorbing all the light around  us
We forgot to love more fight less
Take the time to make some one feel special

The dew drops I miss is Saturday morning pancakes
Planting our garden laughing about my crooked rows
Holding hands in the car enjoying our drive
Some dew drops hurt my soul and his heart

Yelling and screaming to get things done impatient
Feeling like I could do nothing right
Wondering why I was such a failure as a wife

Then we got use to our different dew drops
Starting to see our relationship was more important then all of these problems
Finally after five hard long years we see the light
We went out to eat and dream about a better life

The sun called me and said "there are no more dew drops"
My green grass that glisten from the tender dew drops
Has gone from our brown rich earthly world
Now my shiny green has faded to a dull dried brown grass

The dreams of color to give us hope has faded to old dull
It luster is gone all of these thoughts haunt me late at night
No one to hold me when I am scared
I miss hearing his heart beat
I loved the warm fires he built
Only he could make me laugh at my mistakes

Now I in a wasted land of life unsure what to do
When I do something it turns out to be all wrong
I feel a black veil curse has sprinkled it cobwebs in everything

No where , to turn like I am block in a one way street
with no way to get out
I want to hide every day, away from the hurt and sorrow
My beauty has faded the petals gather at my feet

No matter how hard I try to turn my life around to the better
It just blows up in my face May 12th my spouse death
In August 10th my brother dies
My husband would tease me he would come back and make my life hard

I feel like part of me is gone, my other half is missing
Feeling of tired is spreading to every limb of my body
My brain can not think, I think it out to lunch and forgot to bring me along
All happy feeling have dissolved into nothingness

What I learned reality is far different from my expectations of life
All my hopes and dreams dissolved into a pool of tar
I wonder who I truly am
What is my purpose in life to suffer and suffer

Time has funny virtues
One hour fly's like the wind
The next day minutes go by slowly

It strange how we can see events like they happen yesterday
Time is a funny creature
We guide our life by it
Our goals reflect time spent achieving it

Deep in my reflection have I used my time wisely
Time does not always make things better
What I have learned in this vast land is I know very little

Now I sit all alone with time
Shedding tears of frustrations
Angry that I am alone once again

Have I not learned my lessons