Blak Expressions (inside the black diamond)

I look around and people are dying dropping consistently like flies
and my friends are mourning their Deaths as each comes by surprise
It's hard to walk nowadays with ya head held high in confidence
and contentment knowing that I'm under God's protection
The loss of these people don't affect me deeply
unless they were close friends and family, but I see it like this
"If they lived their life accordingly then we should be happy and celelbrating
The fact that they're in a better place.
But if they didn't Then those who DO make it won't remember their face"

I look around and I feel like my life isn't worth living
cause it feels like my life, my presence hasn't made a bit of difference
it's like I'm just HERE, insignificant to the eyes and lives of those around me
Unappreciated, taken for granted, I mean it's hard enough for me
to have ANYONE be THERE for me other than mama, Granny and the immediate family.
I mean, usually, NO one is ever there for me.
I look around when I come home, and the fridge is partially empty, stomach growling
barely any food to eat
noone acknowledges me, except for Mama and the doggy
I mean ma SISTAS walk by and don't speak, not even their company
the only one happy to see me is that doggone DOG and she and I don't even bond tightly.

In actuality, Black Diamonds are very much appreciated in Africa,
but anywhere else they're considered invaluable and ugly,
the hardest jewel on God's green earth
but still it is a jewel and sparkles with Beauty
But no one want's it, no one appreciates it,
and that's how I feel, invaluable and unappreciated.
Even the one woman I love...... I don't know
I feel like she might not really wanna BE with me
and I can't let me see me in this state of mentality

Ma hope escapes from me slowly it fades from me
I wish I could do the very same ting, escape from this thing called reality.
I look around, and my emotions show in my face and my eyes
but no one asks how I'm doin, see what's even wrong wit me
all they see is I'm upset, and they don't wanna be around the "negativity".
Well well, Maybe I should just stop existing,
Stop swimming against the tides and let it take me.
All I want is for someone to help me
Cause Even Superman needs to be saved occasionally...