To Sha: Best Friend to the End

It was just me and you.

Like the first time we met. I hated you
And you sho as hell didn’t like me back
I thought I was tough shit enough to kick yo ass and  you were two years older than me so all you thought of was letting people know that yo ran shit here
But we didn’t fight. That first step was gone and we saw each other in each other’s lives so we just let it go
Funny when enemies be come friends

So it was just me and you. Us against the world my girl. Punkin fake chicks and pimpin any dude that had the nerve to call us “ma”
It was like .25 suckers from the dollar tree dipped in our bag of koolaid mix
My favorite flavor was blue raspberry and you said that you like any flavor of red so we mixed
Two cups of sugar and two packets in a one quart bag shared between me and you.
We didn’t worry about germs back then cause home girls is girls till then end and neither of us had aids so it was all good

Because it was just me and you like…
Remember that day the summer of 05 right before we got our first boyfriends.  I had been wanting to get my tongue pierced for the longest, so we tricked your aunt into taking us. I got my tongue pierced and because we was girls you got yours too. So both of us sat in front of our moms getting yelled at and we couldn’t even speak
Our tongue hurt so much. And when we talked our words came out like two year olds just learning to speak so we laughed in our angry mothers faces which just made the piercing hurt more so then we cried twice as hard when we got slapped in the face. But it was all good cause I got mine taken out, you kept yours any way. But

Yeah it was all good back in the days when we didn’t have to worry about finals right. I thought it would be over when you went t high school but we kept it going any way. Any that year we got our first dudes. I remember going up to Derrick and threatening him if he ever laid a hand on you and that day when You scared the shit out of T.C. when he tried to sneak into my window. We just laughed it off and played them boys makin them think we was easy then droppin them like a dime. And doing it to any guy that came up to us. You remember right? It was fun.
But of course then you told me that you wasn’t in to that no more. But that’s cool we girls right like my sista from another mista
I was good you was good but together we was bad just gunnin up our block during the summer and still runnin it during school

Then I moved and I felt like my whole world was ending. But you drove up to see me every other week. We ran around in your momma’s car. You taught me to drive and I taught you the lesson you had slept through in your English class. Yeah it was cool. And I thought that everything would stay the same we was never gone change. Although I still wish you woulda went tenda sightin wit me but I’m sure yo girl didn’t want you doin that so I let it go

Say sha, you remember that day when you went missin? I was in eighth grade and you were supposed to be in your sophomore year. I messed up bad that year. All I could thik about the whole time was where you at? Man I caught the bus up to page and Arlington to see yo people, let e’em know I still had hope. It wasn’t till March that we got see of you. Turned out you had decided to drop out. You and yo girl moved out to Normandy. She was runnin you and you was runnin to me asking me to help you fix yo life. I had to do it how many time you done stuck out for me. So I helped you get you ged. Naw it wasn’t easy, I’m surprised you passed it . But girl we was proud. Broke into yo momma’s stash to celebrate. I thought it was cool and yu was gonna go head to design school everything was good

But now I don’t see you no more
You and yo girl always wit each
Other now, so we barely get time to spend
Sometimes I wonder if it’s because of me
And if this whole barrier of preferences
Is the reason for our separation
But yo bitch’ll tell you lies about how I’ll never understand
Was she there to help you  get that abortion?
Did she see you cry on them night when yo daddy would cuss and beat you and yo siblings while he was high
No she don’t get it
And neither do you I guess
We was girls, man
Never duplicated or separated
Can’t you see that what we got ain’t small enough to be tarnished

But you won’t hear this cause it’s been three years since I’ve heard your voice
Five years since I’ve seen your face.
I don’t know where you are
Maybe I never will
Cause that girl has you on a string and
She won’t losen it enough for you to
Say how you really fel
I just hope that when that time comes
Vernon avce is still here to hear it