What do i do?

What do I do?

What do I do?
This is what I ask myself today?
Its catch 22!
Because I don’t know no more what to do,
I try to do right but it seems I can’t do right for doing wrong!
I really try my best,
Perhaps it is that I live in a dream world,
I need to face up to reality!
As much as I don’t want to,
The drink isn’t going to stop dad is it?
It’s just an endless pit!
My head has been pounding today,
Its tension that I do know,
Because I guess inside me I knew,
You wouldn’t be able to stay clear of that evil drink!
Even just for one day until tonight,
God… I ask you?
Why… why has it got to the stage?
Where it’s not just one parent I’ve watched die,
Now it’s going to be 2,
And not a damn thing I can do about it!
This makes me sick to the pit of my stomach,
I can’t do it no more,
I’ve cried tears…
By God you know I have,
Now… I give up…
Because like I say…
There’s not a damn thing I can do about it!

Namaste Selfexpressive