je ne dit riens

she wonders what to do with her life
in a world of ringtones and onion rings
normalizing, ever more mundane
caramelizing nervous system full
of self loathing

feeling like forgetting is the best medicine
but what to forget?
the angst, the anger
frustration, despair, fear
gone, leaving only the bare shell
of acceptance

hard and closed off, world weary
and naive all at once
fear of becoming

or not
fat, lazy, boring, stupid, lost
normal

fear