I really can not apologise enough my love

I really can not apologise enough my love

My beloved husband Bobby,
Throughout the years of being together,
From I was 11 years old going on 12,
I knew you would be mine,
We have been together ever since,
And now are 26 years on,
I dearly am so very sorry my love,
For all the heartache that I have caused,
You never ever deserved this,
Because you are such a good man,
I know you hurt deeply inside when you look at me,
I know you worry constantly at what each day is going to bring,
I honestly never seen this depression all those years coming,
And I know it’s taken the best of me for which I can not apologise enough for,
I truly do love you so much,
With every breath in my body…
I really know at times you are at your wits end,
But you are always here for me,
If only I could be happy,
If only I could laugh more,
This would be something we both would adore,
I really do try so hard inside my love,
But it’s so very hard…
I know I go really quiet at times,
This is by no means…
Your fault… it’s just me…
I thank you from the bottom of my heart,
For giving me 2 beautiful daughters,
And I also pray so hard,
That they never ever end up like me… their mother.

Namaste Selfexpressive.