I guess I just want to go away,
somewhere dark, like my heart.
Somewhere that is unforgiving...like me.
Where I sit horses,
before love can 'see' me.
I will find a dark road to walk,
like my childhood,
where there was no love, no hope,
no nothing...except pain, loss, and where
I learned not to trust...never,
no matter what~~~
they never meant it, mean it...never.
When tuck-in-time was a
far-away-land,
and where hugs were hurry up,
and smiles were dreaded,
because someone was winking.
And I have tried ...and tried,
but to love me is pain, because they
never really do, never did...
so neither will I,
and when it was true, I couldn't
not really, I can't...because
I don't know how.
So I push it away, tell it to leave,
hurt it...so they will,
untill they do.
So I will go back
to where I can relate,
to what I am used to,
back to the game of so-high-judge
because
everything I touch becomes fault and blame
and I hate me, so very much.
and I push away all
love I recieve,
I know nothing else, and I can't act
normal in an abby-normal mind.
So I go into the dark, back to the dark,
to the cardboard box that held my
heart captive,
I'll stay there
forever...and nevermore
will I hurt
the ones I love the most.
Author notes
Love runs away for safety
A contest entry
- Guilt (prewrites welcome) by Danna Hobart.
400 points, ended January 18, 16 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What do you Think???
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Danna, Thank you for the gold,
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Beautiful!
This work is absolutely amazing. You have so much to say and you do so with subtlety and grace. I found myself getting tunnel vision and the only thoughts I had were of you and your pain. My heart goes out to you and I hope you have found acceptance.
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Thanks kao3
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About all I can say is "Wow." Thanks for entering.
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Where is love?
you are love and so clearly full of love.
and that is who you are, you can give it away, but no one can ever take it from you.
sharing love, but don't give it all away keep some for yourself my sweet sister
it is too dark when you give it all away.
you have such a giving soul, but you left yourself out.
you truly are a gifted writer my sweet sister
you threw your emotions beautifully on the page
God bless you always...
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Thank you, my sister, Rainbow...
You have a new avatar...
Such a beautiful face to go with your beautiful soul and heart.
I am just tired, just so tired.
I always thought that life and love would walk hand in hand for me someday,
I think I missed the boat, or maybe I sunk the ship...Idk
I will miss you so much,
Love always, Bell xx
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This is very sad. I never look to a human being to be my anchor, as they are frail and weak and I just don't understand half of the things they do. I look to the spirit to be my anchor and have never been let down once. (build your house on the rock not the sand) I would like to point out that this poem is all about the love you receive determining the love you give. I believe life is exactly the other way around. I believe the love you give determines the love you receive. This was very powerful and moving.
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You speak wisdom and truth, Allan.
Thanks for commenting,
Bell, xx
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Take my hand, I feel the same way since my Ap husband dumped me. Let's go get drunk.
Love,
Amera
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He's gotta be out of his mind to lose you,
yes, lets go get good and drunk, and every once in a while, we'll have a good laugh...about our respective ...um...
what shall we call them?
Love ya, here's my hand, Yessa!
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I am so sorry you feel this way, at times we all hit our bottom, but we can come back.
So Sad
Your Bud
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I tried...
I really did.
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You came through it once, you can do it again.
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My mother said it best;
Love goes where it's sent...up a dogs ass!
hehehe
Love you, Don
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