i. Your arm creeps around my shoulder
building block upon block of pressure
on my delicate spine where tape was patched
to keep me from falling like tears
from your maroon tinted eyes.
You held 'forever' & 'love',
somewhere between the cracks of your irises.
I exchanged breaths with the sound
of your steady heart beat. You triggered
nerves within my throat and hypnotized
my swollen glands,
so I was choking on lullabies
and swallowing moments in time
where you were mine.
You were mine regardless of the
circumstances and the fact that my
stomach was doing somersaults
when you curled your fingers
into the empty spaces of my life.
ii. Minutes are passing like seconds and
seconds are being worn on my sleeve;
rather than being shoved in the gutter
along with water-coloured paintings
that penetrated pure beauty.
Instead, your scent bandages time
and closets printed-off photographs of you and me
in the collapsing terrors of my mind.
You strummed my heart strings with your broken bones
and told me I was beautiful.
Once upon a time I'd force your words
to escape my eardrum and leave me completely,
but now
everything you've said has left me numb
and I find myself as fragile as bubble-wrap,
easy to pop
& exciting to reveal what lies behind every
defeated boundary that has been shot down
by a gaze from your terrifying eyes
that resembled nothing but the stars.
iii. It's half past nine and I'm still awaiting
your appearance at my door,
and an explanation
concerning last weekend's 'rendezvous'
where you sweet talked your way
into my arms and I walked on fire
to cradle myself into yours.
That was the first night you walked away
with a careful goodbye and
held me in a tight embrace to make me feel
as if I meant something to you,
and I wasn't just a crutch for your loneliness
when she wasn't there to provide you
with whatever it is you desired.
I gave in to the shame and let you
control the engines that ran my thoughts
and occupied my endless dreams,
where I was yours
and you belonged to no one
but me
& that was my first mistake.
♥
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