Fooled.

Even in the darkness I see the lines in your face.
I see solace distinguished around the borders of your eyes,
And it frightens me how far you've fallen,
How far you've strayed from my heart.

It doesn't hurt anymore, not like I thought.
The stinging surfaces now and then,
But I'm quickly swamped by repulsive thoughts
As I bite my tongue to fight the dread.

I'm angry, but not so much at you.
I've fooled myself in believing that
Forbidden, hollow sexual fantasies
Just weren't your thing.

In truth, I recognize humanity's flaws
And don't blame the weak for desiring.
It's perfectly natural to fight the urge to
Be rebellious and wild.

So now my heart is rock solid,
And its passage way has burned down.
For I can feel the knife I didn't deserve
Undress itself inside.

And it won't be easy, no.
It will take time to clean the blood.
But I seek joy in the vacancy in each heart beat
My chest produces now.

(And all of this is because...)

You've fallen so far from
Who I thought you were.
You've fallen so far,
You've fallen so far.