Somewhere Between Bipolar and Multiple Personalities

I am one body
But two minds.
Polar opposites,
One loves
One hates.
I am a bad person
Who wants to be good,
A killer
With a conscience.
Is it possible to commit
Partial suicide?
I want to suffocate
One of my selves,
The one that is
Greed,
Selfishness;
The one that hurts
The ones I love,
That plagues the rest of me,
Keeps me sick.
I try to kill it
With all that it’s made of
When I should be
Drowning it out
With what it’s not.
What happens
When bitter rivals
Are inseparable?
If one of them dies, they both die.
Does one sacrifice themselves
For the “greater good”?
What if it wasn’t just them
That would die
But those that they love,
Would they sacrifice them all
To overcome evil?
It’s war.
It’s a gamble.
And how do you risk
The one’s you love
To save them?
I’m not a gambler.
The better part of me
Wants to,
Needs to
Become stronger
Grow larger
And dominate.
And if it doesn’t…
I don’t know.
I can only hope.