Twins are Forever

October 22, 2005

Loving whisper tickles her ear
Danielle is calling, beckoning from somewhere
She races somewhere; now she can’t hear
Empty spaces, dark hallways; she’s nowhere
Every reason to be alarmed
She wakes up sobbing in her arms

She is amazing, dancing on the video screen
The strongest person she had ever met
She clasps her hand so cold - pleads to pause the scene
At least her skin still feels the same - no longer wet
Even in death she has the most beautiful face - so strong, so pretty
They want to suffocate her; No! She’s not ready
She strokes her silky hair; the bond they cannot sever
She whispers in her twin’s ear, “Sisters are forever”

Cop cars are pulling up the driveway
The policemen stand at door; could’ve been yesterday
Her pulse hastens; her mother quickly answers the knocking
She peaks past her shoulder, anxious to what’s happening
“Your Daughter’s been in an accident.”
Pulse stops; the word spins.She’s alright; he lies.
Then she knows that’s not rain on the cop’s eye

She’s shivering alone; now piss off, she’s angry
Insomnia - consumed with macabre
She clinches her fists - moans ’till no sound
Exhausted eyes - last tear of the morning trickles down
Mother’s mourning ripples the air incessantly
She presses her hands into her ears vainly

The eternal blister stings in every in every room
Her soft fragrance is fading from her bedroom
The hours slug by; and the air tastes sour and dry
No one’s here to eat the last of the cookie dough sticks
They’re turning seventeen, but forget the candle wicks
Christmas is empty; celebrating is pointless

You were supposed help me through the darkest of days!
Holding my hand always, but now I’m just in this depressing haze
It’s so surreal, it doesn’t make any sense
I‘m still spinning, “why aren’t you here with me?”
Thinking of all those fights we had
All the memories we shared
How would you want me to act now?

I still think about you every second I’m here
Should I just die along with you?
I‘m barely hanging on; it’s all too much
I still don’t believe anything people say
about contacting you, or speaking with you
I still talk to you when I’m alone though
But you still feel so far away

I guess I’ll just have to hold on
Knowing someday we’ll have a beautiful life
I know someday I’ll see you again
Buy why?
WHY?
Why can’t it now?