I Don't Deserve You

I don't deserve you

all of your beauty and sincerity

the love that you give to me

everyday so unconditionally

I have broken your heart

countless times over and yet,

you're always there for me

with open arms and understanding

it has always been about me

so self-centered and blind

I never gave you the chance

to be who you wanted to be

I controlled your dreams

made you feel so hollow inside

I'll never know what I did to you

but, I'll do all that I can to make it up

I don't deserve you

you are such a special woman

so vibrant, beautiful, and alive

I should have set you free long ago

but, I never knew how

I was so caught up in my own world

always putting myself before you

forgetting about all of my responsibilities

each day we were together

I controlled your actions

told you what to wear

how to style your hair

I don't know why you put up with me

even after all of these years

you're still here looking into my eyes

holding my hands as you cry

please don't cry for me

I am ashamed at who I have become

deep down inside we both know

that I don't deserve you