so you want to know what it's like
living in a house of pain and fear
ever little sound you jump; your heart pounds in fright
you hear someone coming; run and try to hide
never knowing if you’ll be met with anger or a smile
always it’s your fault; from it rained to not answering the phone
then you have to pay in bruises; or deep cutting words of pain
afraid to upset someone afraid to pay the price
telling them anything to make them smile even if it’s a lie
then comes the day you just want the pain to end
you're hurting inside you want to die
striking out at them hoping to stop the pain
so one way or another the hurting will end
looking into the face of rage
wishing that today’s your final day
only you live to face it all another day
until you’re so beaten down; living to die
he whispers something in your ear
"no one wants you"
then your heart and soul dies
Author notes
a little side note:
the person that was the object of this write read this poem they laughed and said to get over it
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Freaks like that love the control, that is all it is really about to them. They have no love, they do not love themselves, nor will they likely ever.
But as actors they are very good, award winning nomination,
and none but you know the whole truth.
They are not worth your time or love, or worry...
Scott
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"telling them anything to make them smile even if it's a lie" That line spoke volumes to me. I just can't understand how people can be like that.
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Thank you
people like this are control freaks
and yet out of control themselves
Roses to you
Teresa
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wow. amazing.
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Thank you
and yes I know this all first hand
it's all true.
Roses to you
Teresa
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Disturbing
The clouds of anguish surrounding this poem seem as if they could never disperse. I pray that they will do so for anyone experiencing the torment you so describe with such closely observed and paainful detail.
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Hmmm what a frightful side note to this. Its a shame anyone has to hide and run in fear of being struck, and then not only the physical abuse then to have to take the verbal abuse with it. Hang in there girl. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
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I know many of those instances. Running from the sound of an unlocking door, dreading the minute a car pulls into the driveway. Knowing full well that no matter how well you did things, how hard you try, it's never good enough. Always a failure in someones eye.
Always a beaten down and worthless nothing.
A smaller and more personal version of what the government does to the people that are supposed to run it.
People who are abused, lose their independence, their freedoms, even after the fact. They find it nearly impossible in most cases to ever find the strength that they were born with. Having 'survived' for so long, we forget how to live.
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Thank you
a little side note I added
the person that was the object of this write read this poem they laughed and said to get over it
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You poems have always been strongly based in emotion, raw, and pure emotions but lately you have tapped into something far stronger, keep it flowing my friend, this poem is proof of what i am talking about
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just telling it like it is Aaron
Roses to you
Teresa
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aw, this is so sad.
You expressed lots of emotion in this piece and I think the poem also expresses how so many abusers treat their victims. Always telling them that they will never be worthy of love when the truth is it's the abusers who shouldn't be worthy of anyone's love. Thanks for sharing and keep that pen flowing.
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Arzab I just wanted to write what it really fills like
the truth no candy coatings. -
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That's exactly how it should be. If people sugar coat or candy coat their words, the words aren't as real. Keep your poetry real.
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heartfelt
Oh sweetheart, how my heart breaks for you, and I sit here with tears falling,because I know your spirit is down and in pain.Your words bring so many emotions to the reader and the visuals they we get from reading you are so sad and horrible,because no child should have to suffer the abuse of an adult, and even another adult should not have to suffer that sort of brutelity.To have someone tell you "No one wants you"
is inexcusable.Words like that wound a persons spirit,and its wrong.
It seems sort of wrong to say hey, what a great write and give you the clapping hands, but i will applaude you because though this write is written well and the reader can see and feel within your words, it takes guts to write about such hurtful experiences, and you have done just this, it would of been very hard re-living it all over again as you pen your words.I am proud of you darl, this shows that you are a strong woman and I am sure that penning your feelings would be helping your soul to heal.
Keep penning and I pray you will soon find comfort in your life once again.
Much love to you,
Angel
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I wanted to write what it really fills like
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Tears of Roses
You have done just that, and so well, and that is the way it should be done.The truth sinks in.Keep penning my friend.
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