The Fight

Why is it you can't see why my anger resides?
I'm an open book, I have nothing to hide.
My salty tears are ones of frustration and sorrow,
For I can't shake the feeling there is no tomorrow;
You know I love you with my heart and my soul,
I thought for the both of us there was a mutual goal.
I do not say I doubt you, well, perhaps that is a lie,
It is moments like this I wish for these feelings to die;
For I care for you deeply and would make sure that you smile,
Even if we can't be together for a while.
I wish it wasn't so and that fate was more kind,
For this whole situation is driving me out of my mind.
But you must see it from my point of view,
Why I am so utterly disappointed and upset with you.
I have went out of my way and made an effort for us to be together,
Though i know this awkward situation won't last forever,
Where was the man who used to be so strong?
Who lived up to his promises and was never gone too long?
Where is my vampire who would protect me from this sullen life?
Who would approach me with caution as to not promote strife?
Why are you fading and thusly pushing me away?
When all I long for is for you to stay.
Dearest Malkov what have I done?
Why do you flee and feel hope is none?
When all I have ever offered is unconditional love,
When our destinies are intertwined and transcends the heavens above.
Know that I am waiting and have never turned my back,
Because without you in my life there is one thing that I lack:
The ability to smile and be happy with this life,
The transformation which happened after I would forsake the knife.
So please dearest Malkov do what you couldn't do back then,
Be who you are and think not of it as a sin.
When you forget yourself and get lost in your own head,
That is when I lose you, and you're as good as dead.
I never want that to happen and I thought I'd made it clear,
Please dearest Malkov, come back to my embrace and don't give into fear.