Justification of an Cruel Act

So happy were we that nothing mattered,
not one slight little thing.
The joy of your arms surrounded me,
you made me a queen to your king.
I'd thought for so long and wished,
for someone to come just as you.
You did and you rescued me from all that I'd feared,
and saved me from all wrong that I'd do.

When did it all go so wrong?
My love to be swapped with contempt.
I don't understand this sorrow ,
why you've dashed all the dreams I have dreamt.
The joy of your arms hold no meaning,
nor does the faithful look in your eye.
I can't justify my own heart,
even though I always scream 'why'.

The last thing I would do is hurt you,
all those long years ago.
But now I'm just finding excuses,
to deliver my fatal last blow.
To me the regret is not real,
any feeling long since forgot.
I can't look at you with hope in my eyes,
for the love I had long since sought.

The last thing now I must say to you,
is that though you have home in my heart,
I cannot love you any more than I have.
Faith has seen to slowly depart.
Call me whatever you choose to be fit,
but truth rather than lies,
will set you loose to love once again,
and free your soul to the skys.