My life is a trap
An infinite black hole
I attract hatred
It pierces my soul
I am not an oddity
Abomination, anomaly
I hide in shadows
I don't want to be seen
Too damn repulsive
To be a human being
I know I'm an idiot
Not worth anything at all
On a path headed nowhere
Insignificant, small
Nobody sees me
A faceless none
I'm surrounded by people
Don't count me as one
My parents gave up
A long time ago
My existence is futile
They pretend they don't know
That they have a daughter
She's in her room
But they ignore me
Which is good, I assume
At least they don't scream
They don't start drinking at nine
They don't really hurt me
Except in my mind.. which really doesn't count at all
If I was gone I don't think
That many would be sad
But then again
They wouldn't be glad
For no one would notice
They wouldn't remember my name
My empty desk in the back
Would go on the same
Always vacant
In everyone's heads
And when I go home
An empty bed
That nobody ever slept in... just me
Author notes
Option 2
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Comments
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great write :)
"I am not an oddity
Abomination, anomaly
I hide in shadows"
" They don't really hurt me
Except in my mind.. which really doesn't count at all"
Honestly I love every line in this poem I can relate to some of it, and I absaloutly love how it's rhyming and still written well. Not many poets can still pull that off. Good luck in my contest, sorry it's running so long. -
This is a really moving write. For me being a teenager there is alot here that I can relate to, especially the feelings of isolation and invisibility. This poem spoke to me in a way, and it reminds me of alot of my own earlier poetry that I am yet to post on AP but that I wrote as I was suffering from depression.
"I hide in shadows
I don't want to be seen
Too damn repulsive
To be a human being"
This bought back alot of cruel memories from my past, but don't worry, this is exactly what I want!!
Thankyou so much for entering this into my competition. It's a wonderfully moving write.
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o perfect! i love it!
can i have ur mame i'd love 2 use ur poem in a speach of mine if i'm allowed
i love it ur n the top!
the only thing i have bad 2 say about it is it should say "To be a human being" in line 10
thanx good poem please, let me use it! just get me ur name...
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Thanks! I fixed the typo on line ten and my name is Aubrey Zepeda.
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