Into the shadows I creep
Waiting for the darkness
To take control over me.
You are gone from my side.
I can’t bare the loneliness.
We had this connection,
This bond between us that
Felt like it would never sever.
But it has and now I’m all alone
To feel this pain of separation.
I hurt myself to feel a different pain.
Am I destined to walk this earth
Alone until the day I die?
I wish you never existed.
That you never came into my life.
I never really fit in to your world.
Guess it doesn’t really matter anymore.
Artificial happiness is what you gave me.
For a brief moment in Time.
I love you. I hate you.
You fucking broke my heart!
This is craziness. This is madness.
I just don’t know what to do.
What to say or how to feel.
I am dying inside.
I’ve lost all respect for your kind.
It seems like all the men in the world
Like to use me for something.
Sex, drugs, money, entertainment.
I give up.
There’s nothing I can do to help.
Just let the shadows eat me alive
And let me wallow in my misery.
You did this to me.
You DID this to me.
YOU did this to ME.
Author notes
I started writing this today for no reason at all and for no one in particular. Then it changed. I guess I wrote this with my ex-husband in mind. I had a dream about him and it really hit me hard again. I suppose that I will never forgive him for what he did to me. He drove me into my mental madness. At least I got help before it was too late. Then again, being all messed up in the head and on psych meds is not fun either.
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Comments
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reading this poem inspired me to write this:-
I feel the pain of separation
My heart is left with the desperation
The connection we once had is gone
The madness awakes at every new dawn
Feelings strong that still exist
Are what I am trying to weakly resist
There’s no thrill left in the night
Can’t see any saviour in sight
The misery seeps into my very soul
I find I’m no longer in control
These emotions cut far too deep
So what’s the point of sleep?
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