Closed Heart

My once closed heart
was opened for you.

Slowly you were allowed in
And you made my life alive.

But that was it.
You tore me apart.

Things about who I am
Changed around you for better.

I will never be
Who I used to.

I don't hate you now,
No matter what my efforts.

After you pulled me
into these small pieces

My heart was tattered and
Torn for all too see.

All of your efforts
To make me social

Have been so cleanly destroyed
By your own work alone.

Again, I feel alone.
Again, I cannot trust.

You broke the little trust
I was able to give.

Now, I'm in pieces.
I am almost unrepairable.

So I guess Thank you,
For making the damage greater.

Author notes

Ok, so I spent some time earlier with my ex. That is what I think of her, even if our relationship was never exactly like that.

I don't trust easily. I was completely closed off to people when I met her and the other friends I have around. She slowly made me trust people, and in particular, her. Then, I gave her everything and my life was hers. I was so happy around her, away from her with the thought that she was there. Then I got cast aside for another woman, I feel is wrong for her... And... well... I'm worse now than I was before.

Now this is what I am. This is to her, hopefully making a point of what she did.