What hurts the most
is looking back and seeing nothing.
A vast expanse of emptiness stretching out
where there should have been memories.
Holding onto grains of sand
being washed away in the passing of time.
Being a reflection in the oasis
and a mirage for someone dying of thirst.
Pain is
about loving you and losing me.
How I held on to the memories
that are the only reality now.
When there wasn’t ever a you and me
but I had thought otherwise.
Being the fool left in the dark
and getting kicked around.
When everything comes down to it,
I don’t want to be here in the end.
I don’t want to see your smiling, laughing
face fading away like a dying star.
I don’t want to wait a million light years
for the truth to travel to me through time and space.
I want the lies to extinguish themselves
in the fireballs of the flaming sun.
Looking into the mirror,
I want to see myself yet again.
What hurts the most
is not when you left without a word.
It is not when everything I had thought was
real turned out to be fake.
No, it is not even about you,
or her, or them.
What hurts the most,
is me looking in, and not seeing me anymore.
A contest entry
- lotsa quotes!!!! by upperworld06.
650 points, ended December 3, 2008, 12 entries
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Have you ever felt that you have lost yourself? How do you get yourself back?
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wow this is really sad, sorry if this really happened. i usually listen to music when i'm feeling down, that's usually how i get myself feelin better
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I really like this. I think it is fantastic. I like where you took it, it was different and not a cliche. Yet it is such a common people in people to lose themselves when they find someone or something else. i really think that you capture what that loss feels like. And how you don;t even realize something is missing until it is too late. I think that this poem is great for that reason that it is so easy for people to relate to.
Thank you for entering my contest and the nest of luck.
nikk -
Yes, losing oneself when losing someone special too us is real.I have felt it...You have your emotions and feelings in the right place..distinguishing one from the other...A clever profound write...Well done!
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great!
i really like u poem. its really well written -
Wow
another great write! you are really good at this!!
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wow this is a nice write.....yeah i can feel the pain too...
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may-be for some time during pain and joy you only saw your own refelection of what you percieved to be you. Sort of like when you look at the surface of water. not percieving the depths below but just what you see on the surface which we usualy ascociate with that which is fammiliar to what we know. maybe you don't just see the surface of things any-more and are lost to the un-fammilar. exploring the hidden depths which you do not recognize, yet. you will grow from what you don't know. i would say you have out-grown what you have known... there is alot of uncertainty that comes with this. a butterfly does not see itself in the caterpillar yet the caterpillar can see itself in the butterfly. all have potential to change into something beautiful. That is the beauty of a caterpillar.
accept your view of the world has changed... grown to adapt to experience. This poem sings personal growth... the fruits of consciousness expanding.
Also being lost is a great way to find yourself. It is just a pity you have suffered emotionaly. Great poem and a winner in my eyes
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Hey thanks! "Change is the only constant" and all yeah... sometimes, it's funny how you think you're going to remember something forever but it turns out that time passing will cause you to forget it gradually.. Yeah, nothing's forever huh?
Life is pain and joy equal parts and that's the beauty of it. .
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Well well well,
i see why you asked us all to check this out,
The sombre tones that reside between these lines are vivid and clear, well done on this part
All the best to you in life and love
Ken
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Wow
Wow Char! Thank you for sharing this with me. I really loved it a lot! I could not stop reading it! hehehe.. Beautiful. Bravo!!
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