When An Emotion Collides With Anger And Fear

everytime i look into your eyes i know that you're the right person i'm supposed to be with. but getting shot down so many times stings but it only gives me the courage to continue on and hope that one day things will turn out different and you'll change your mind and want to be with me too. and i know that fantasies hardly ever come true but i really pray that the one i always have of you will eventually turn out right and appear in real life and make me smile and you can look into my eyes and see then that i'm the right person that you're suppossed to be with.


hopefully, if all turns out okay you and i can go through one day without fighting, without hating, without loathing one another. just go through one day where all we do is love each other and hug each other and kiss each other and touch each other until we both are convinced that all is perfect and no one else could fill that spot in our hearts that are exact cut-outs of each other and then finally i can smile and mean it and go to bed with a set of arms wrapped around me.


i know i've ruined alot of things in the past, especially when it comes to romance and controlling my emotions. but sometimes when you love some one so much you just can't help but show it 24/7 and hope to God you won't get on their nerves and just hope that when you brush up against their arm they won't move it but instead allow your skin to linger on their's and all is perfect for about 6.89 seconds until they have a scratch and have to move. but that 6.89 seconds will be imbeded into my memory forever and it helps me sleep, so i say thank you for not moving.


life may indeed go on, but it can go in the wrong direction.