Should Have

Confused inside yet you could not let go
having fantasies
I was not blind
I did not want to see
you could have let me be

love for two women
when you met me
you lied
you said that you were ready

I opened up to you
not like with others
gave you my soul

how could you string me along
you should have known what you wanted
now three years later
I'm shattered

held on trying to have you completely
trying to show you that i was worth all of your love
all a long, you were confused
You met me and you loved me
but, not as much as her

you fought off your feelings
for what?

the emotion you tried to hide
all the private conversations
no matter how hard you tried
you could not run from it

you tried to let them go
tried to hold on to what was close
fantasy or reality

an undying love you have
times two


instead of being honest and follwing your heart
you put one part of your soul on hold
and held the other as long as you could

it was unfair
I gave you my all
you tried to give me yours
while fighting yourself daily
only to be back at square one?

Unfair on both sides
its not fair that I loved you
its not that you loved me
love is a confusing emotion

it only gets worse when you're torn by love
the emotion of having a love
and not being able to express it
the emotion of having someone who loves you
and not being able to fully show it
torn in between two

Seven years or Three years?
history is so much
sometimes you loose

love has to happen at the right time
and when you want it to

a pulse within your body
a linger for her touch
a fantasy so real

come back to bed
come feel me
feel my warmth
feel my love
stay within our world
keep your mind still

don't
please don't

I love you too..

you had me
you had her

till this day
she still has you

I tried to be the wife
only to be a widow...