[ wake up! ]

wake up!
good morning.
your late, yet again.
why, cuz im not good enough.
hurry up.
get ready.
only 5 minutes left.
why, cuz im not good enough.
your useless!
says she.
as i run down that stairs.
why, cuz im not good enough.
i wish i could be.
away.
just now.
hurry up, cuz im not good enough.
tears flow down my cheeks.
quiet.
and free.
hurry up, cuz im not good enough.
i wipe my eyes.
so you.
wont see.
hurry up, cuz im not good enough.
i hide in the bushes.
to skip.
the bus.
to prove, that im not good enough.
the yellow vehicle goes by.
i jump.
and run.
to prove, that im not good enough.
to the brook behind my house.
i run as fast.
as i can
to prove, that im not good enough.
i arrive with ym bag.
and my small
evil plan.
to scream, that im not good enough.
i sit down on the stones.
and plan.
my next move.
to scream, that im not good enough.
i start to rethink.
NO!
shut up.
to scream, that im not good enough.
i unzip my bag.
and pull out.
some metal.
because to you, ill never be good enough.
i turn it over in my hand.
and feel up.
the trigger.
because to you, ill never be good enough.
i slowly put it on my toungue.
and start the pressure.
bang.
because to you, ill never be good enough.
my body lies limp.
with a red halo around me head.
since in the end. i never am good enough.