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thinking to myself, out loud, "if only..."

if only

 

If only my tears wouldn't come,

the mascara wouldn't run down my face.

Why is it that I'm always a trainwreck?

[hey, look at your last name]

 

I wish I could control what you do to me.

Because it takes much less than a man

to get on top of someone as young as me.

[yes Daddy, I mean you]

 

If only I never had said a thing.

The voice I have becomes a "used to be"

and I act like I never saw a thing.

 

If wish I didn't have to be like this,

pregnant at 15, after 2 miscarriages.

[you see me as a whore, I see myself as a victim]

 

If only I was brave enough to let them hear me cry.

 

Author notes

Pic Credit: http://noizez.deviantart.com/art/If-only-II-53671034

AP Name: Lowercase Prelude

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  • RuthieDropDead
    May 28

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    Beautiful!

    This almost brought tears to my eyes! (and im not the easiest crier) when I got to the second stanza,i finally understood what this work of art meant.If this has happened to you,im sorry!No one deserves something like that!You are very talented,ya know?


  • moderndayvampire
    December 10, 2008

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    good work

    this was painfull to read and brought about raw emmotion.there is always a glimmer of light looking for you,sometimes its very hard to find,
    please come talk to me if you ever need encouraging word.


  • Commodore Rouge
    November 30, 2008

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    This is beautiful. Taking on the role of giving a voice to a mere piece of artwork is something I find very hard to do, unless of course the photo was to accompany the poem, but nonetheless, this poem is a piece of art itself.
    The emotion is as pure as it gets, and I'm sure this is a touching piece to all of your readers. I like the whispered --perhaps-- lines; it adds depth to your words and gives a nice, darkening effect.
    Overall, I can find nothing to improve on with this. You have a lovely way with words. Thanks for entering.


  • leander Moderators member
    November 14, 2008

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    Well this is quite some heavy material for the reader to ponder upon... You definitely did a fantastic job by writing in the first person (at least, that's what I think you did here - and hope you did as well)

    Goes straight to one's spine.
    Thank you for entering,
    Leander


  • dabpunx
    November 11, 2008

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    this was really sad. i pray that people get out of these situations. great job expressing this horrible truth and the complex shame, guilt and confusion tied into it. at least the girl knows she's a victim not a whore. great job of putting yourself in other's shoes too.


  • xxRainbowDawnxx
    November 9, 2008

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    Like the reference to the name. I like how you also make yourself female in this piece, portraying a different angle that I am sure you are used to. It's hard to write like a man, I know that. I never know what you people are thinking!

  • XxXpainisloveXxX
    November 2, 2008
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    wow sounds like what happens to me everyday


  • mizerdrea
    October 31, 2008

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    If only I was brave enough to let them hear me cry.

    those words are strong.i love this piece. I could feel the pain u felt.

    Good job...


  • Kiss the girl--x
    October 31, 2008

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    'If only I was brave enough to let them hear me cry.'

    that last line sent goosebumps over my entire body, the whole piece was so sad, and goes with the picture perfectly.

    thanks for entering

    ♥


  • superstition
    October 7, 2008

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    This penning has such a powerful impact all throughout its words, and I think you did a great job at bringing that picture to life with the message portrayed. It's a scary thing, knowing that these sorts of things happen in this world for real, and so many of the stories go unheard...masked from reality. Great job at describing what would be going through her mind...and your use of language was excellent...sounds like the things a troubled 15 year old would be saying.

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