Fucklicker.
What exactly do you think, is a fucklicker?
Take the chill and don’t worry.
Sometimes,
I just ramble.
It is a thought, an expression born out of nothingness,
a thought married to a bizarre dream, living a life of desperation,
riddled by aimless anger, looking for any derogatory label,
to attach to all that it is jealous of:
Life. Love. Ambition. Hopes. Dreams and accomplishment.
A crude exclamation of bile, I think, directed straight at you.
Not straight at you in particular, oh no!
I mean, straight at you all, in general.
Now, don’t get me wrong, though it may seem so,
I do not reveal to you my hatred;
say moreso,
I offer you my fears.
What isn’t blatantly obvious yet, is that I do not fear you,
it is a fear of myself.
Not a fear of failure, not a fear of rejection, not a fear worthlessness.
No.
It is a fear that I may get it right.
That I may prove my years of pervasively destructive thinking
to be wrong, now where would that leave me? The mind boggles....
Years wasted on a festering wound, an ugly motherfucker
twisting my own opportunities into disasters.
You know what?
I think I just found out exactly,
what a fucklicker is.
That’s him....
In the mirror.
Author notes
No need for explanation.
A contest entry
- freeverse & prose [emotions attached] by xxRainbowDawnxx.
600 points, ended October 26, 2008, 35 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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hmmm, seems like the nonsensical garbage that seems to litter my mind and mouth at the moment, but most people don't listen to it anyway, so it's harmless for the most part.
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Thank you.
So, what you are saying is, it's garbage? lol
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Interesting write here
Indeed when we see ourselves in the morror what does our own mind see what does it say about how we have directed our life and what have we done to make it the best it can be .We are the keepers of our own bodies is yours strong today are have you become lost from following others footprints instead of your own . Its a thought
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Thank you. In my case I dont think it's been a case of following footsteps of others, I think I have followed my own footsteps, round and around in one big loop, either that, or stuck on a treadmill going to fast with no way to get off.
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