Dear Brother,

I wasn’t not Emo,
I didn’t always wear Black
I looked normal,
as normal as i could.
like a teenage girl should.

But im not
normal i mean
not for awhile now
cuz what you don’t see
is the cuts beneath my sleeves

You’re still surprised
like you didn’t see it coming
you took me to your room
and messed with my little body
told me i was your own oddity.

You said to keep it a secret
and i did
God! i can’t believe i did
i was so weak
such a little freak

now i have more
secrets i wont share.
first you
and how you----
and what you----

did----

do----

i have those,
the scars on my arms
the fresh cuts
the ones i have to explain
over and over again.

its eating me up
inside out
how i can’t ever tell anyone
the crime against me
worse than any other
cuz it was you,
it was you, my brother.

how dirty you make me feel
incest, incest, incest.
i am that girl
the contaminated one
all because you wanted your fun.

i just passed you the peas
its thanksgiving
and you’re home
please please
wont you leave me alone?