Once a nun,
still a virgin -
something I hold dear.
Not many understand
how I can resist the natural
drives and impulses to give in...
Into marriage, family, sex
for pleasure's sake; why I'd rather
be single than have romance and intimacy.
Truth be told, I don't want
children of my own, or a husband - I
cannot keep up with my own burdens and needs,
Let alone that of others.
It wouldn't be fair to commit to an
obligation where needs will go unfulfilled...
I have the desire to be loved
and treasured above all by one alone,
and to enjoy, to share all the discoveries,
Big and small things in life
with little ones...but I am not adaptable
to such a position of responsibility 24/7.
I've tried before, with
babysitting, playing with nephews and nieces,
but it exhausts me...as it does all parents,
But I just don't bond
as parents and lovers do; it's true.
So single I will remain, and you wonder why...
My Catholic faith and family
matters go hand in hand; I cannot ignore
the obligations of the Church I have committed to follow.
No contraception, no abortions -
I don't believe in killing innocent babies.
Those are the rules, and I'll play by them 'til death.
Sometimes I think that if
I knew I could never have children,
I could handle being married, but not with someone immature.
You wonder why I say single
and not solitaire; I am no recluse or hermit,
nor selfish regarding my time, talents, and gifts,
I say single because I can
still have community, and a larger one
at that; I do not relish the idea of living alone.
Right now, I am emotionally unready
to take that jump and head out on my own path,
and for that reason, I remain at home, welcomed, loved...
In a community sanctified by God,
and understood for who I am, not who I could be
or should be or will or won't be.
In a list
A contest entry
- Keep My Heart Strong. by jessifer1792.
525 points, ended October 7, 3 entries
Silver trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Wow. I am utterly amazed at how much this relates to myself. In fact, I was telling my friend about these things today.
These parts especially,
"No contraception, no abortions -
I don't believe in killing innocent babies.
Those are the rules, and I'll play by them 'til death."
"Sometimes I think that if
I knew I could never have children,
I could handle being married, but not with someone immature."
I really don't know what I am supposed to do. I know that I have to help animals. I want to be loved, I want romance but... I'm sure you understand, it's complicated!
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This was really good!
Congrats on winning silver!! -
a GLIMPSE INTO YOUR THOUGHTS
WONDERFULLY WRITTEN MY FRIEND
GOD BLESS YOU...
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Thank you!
Funny thing is, my ex-boyfriend is still trying to impress me and get me back.
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It's great and i mean it.Your lines are powerful,emotional and thanks for sharing.Each line told sth about you .Keep it up !
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