you make me laugh sometimes..all the time, and it's sooo funny

i sit here, ultimately, with my head full of schemes,
hopes and dreams that keep me from sleep
and things that just get in the way
so I write and scheme and write and scheme,
to find new ways to see,
and in this scheming there is a light
but i'm not sure,
for it's not the brightest light
and my heart is cold steel by now.

i'm a man with a plan
except not a man,
but above all, i have a plan.

and 20 schemes to back me up if the plan fails.

(cause in my head, in the secret portal in said head, i am the mastermind villian riding a mecha-dragon, and i have a tophat...i run through the city blowing things up and singing and blowing things up and taking over the world and i'm laughing hysterically at everything and it's all good,,but that's in my head)

and this plays in my dreams, and the alt-realism is peachy.

as are you, oh peachy one..

i just don't get it....why can't i feel love?
for any one?
i mean...like what is keeping me back from making any kind of commitment? 

i mean, i do enjoy this, i'm just confused.

and in my own head i'm a little less wiggy.

you can feel it just fine...so tell me, what keeps me here and what holds me down?

eh, either way i have my plans and schemes, dreams, ideas, things, and even more back-ups if needed and at least that part is just ducky, lovelies, just ducky.