If I was convinced enough that you cared,
I'd have broken your heart like you did mine.
I just don't have it in me to do such a thing.
But how come it was so easy for you to move on?
How come I still cry at night?
And why do I still pleasure myself over you- and cry afterwards?
How can you just stop loving someone?
I'm trying hard to move on.
To finally let go of you- for my sake. Not yours.
I thought I knew I was doing my best as a girlfriend.
But you were just so hard to reach.
How can you love someone so much that it hurts
and that you just want to please them all the time?
All I ever wanted was your attention and affection.
I wanted you to love me like I loved you.
How can two years mean so little?
I still think about you when I'm driving.
The way I used to watch you at the wheel.
Remembering the songs you used to sing to. The songs I hated.
But somehow I tolerate them now.
I remember when you used to rest your hand on my leg.
That was comfort. That was security. That was happiness.
How does pillow talk, turn into silent nights?
Listening to you sleep at night. Your back turned to me.
Wondering if you were dreaming you were somewhere else...
With someone else?
I wanted you so bad.
I know I had you at one stage. But I can't remember when I lost you.
I'm never going to get my best friend back.
I wish I knew how to mend my broken heart.
I wish I had peace within my soul.
I just want my life back.
Author notes
Im going through a tough break up. It's tough for me because I can't let go. I fought so hard to keep him. To let him know I was still in love with him.. but he just got too restless and bored and in the end pushed me away by being cold, distant, shut himself off to me and sometimes was hurtful.
I wish someone could help me move on...
A contest entry
- How can you mend a broken heart by rainyday woman.
875 points, ended October 15, 2008, 27 entries
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Sad
Wow! I knew how much he hurt you but reading this makes me feel so sad about. My fav lines were "If I was convinced enough that you cared,
I'd have broken your heart like you did mine.
I just don't have it in me to do such a thing." you don't have it in you... and that's why you are such a cool chick. Hang in there hun... it will get better
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Thank you so much for entering this contest, I was hoping it would prove a catharsis for some and aide for others. Again thanks for entering.
Cheryl
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