A Moment

staring






teacup slide on the sidelines
sip for
some equality
bitter taste i've never craved
i'm craving it now
leaves in my cup
the feel of salt in my eyes






i can't help it
staring






Wondering if you're
alright
though i know
you'd care less
if i tried
your smile a slap to face
my cheek red and flushed
more please
more needles to the duct






make me your masochist
staring






And a look of mutuality
is a shot in the air
knowing this is all
so comical and sadly
hilarious
waiting in stagnant line
for the bitch to tell me
this was the wrong one

an open invitation
for upbuilding conversation
for slight interest
with your slight
indifference
on the other end
trying to fill up seconds






as i lick the wound,
staring
the kindness shouting in support,
to shut your eyes


rip them for me
as they don't respond
to any immune system
i'm going to die silly


rip the eyes that keep
staring
as i cry out in pain
and relief
i'd rather gain weight off
the pleasure
of someone i hate
than starve off the
fat of your ignorance






i know you never meant
anything, that my
staring just disturbed you
i laugh because
you stared
just as much

as i ever did.











and i know sometime


the thought of
staring
won't cross my mind


but until then..





dressed in wine
i'll be the charlie
running high
for lucy van pelt
to give me the dive