will i ever sleep with out all these thought
of the past and me in the shallow puddle
made for me so will i drown or just bleed
how come it always turns this way
them believeing what they say
and where are your friends when you need to hear there voice
just to know you'll fine but they arent here might never be
all to long will this kill me i feel threw all this pain
im becoming numb not to the past but to now
all this pain wont go away worse and worse every day
you said your here for me i know your my friend
atleast thats what you say so i sit here all alone
i dont know how to say im broken already
you think you may know me but not everything
so tired yet all these tears cant close my ears
hurts so bad to be alone i know your there for me
but your not here to save me from fallin again
failing again so why do i try still not an answer why
hate myself wanted to die call out but know 1 is listening
not like they'd care anyway not like they no all this pain
could they ever understand i tryed my best yet here i fall
i cant stand on my own and have failed myself im a failure
once again just reunited with the past just another thing to
cross off that has made me feel this way drowndin in a waterless sea
cant swim across to the light just trap by my darkened soul
my soul thats become so cold i try to hear yet nothin is there
just hate and tourment from all of them so why am i the only 1
how do they block the pain is it by hurting me
so numb so alone so beat down were have you gone
im lost again in my thoughts that lock me in
they take me captive hold me hostiage
so do it take control not like it will be any worse then all those times before
so lock me up inprison me hang me from the gallos or a tree
this posion you put in me is eating me away is taking ever heartbeat
and breaking it shatter dreams broken thoughts nothing left i dug this hole
so bury me before i do it myself how do i know when im gone
will there be anything with the condition of this destroyed soul i doubt there
is anything that is planned for me just here to be alone to show that you are not alone
that beinging numb so cold beaten down i might know but never say in the end
does it all go away... ive been told so many times you cant give up
you are so great a person then why am i like this i was told it all happens for a reason
then what should i do now can forgive cant forget all this pain some regret
nothing to give upto hope these words speak to you
knowing that i am chained by these things
the spear driven deeper in me i cant control
cant hold up myself but i will try for any1 else so am i done
were do i belong how do i get there if i cant run
i just wanted a voice to say to me its fine you'll be ok
they do not know all the pain ive been threw and my only fear
is another broken friendship another lie another broken heart and a good bye
thats all i fear so i sit here all alone wishing i could dream of some place with you to call home
away from here away from me away from almost everything
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