&Thank You;;

I thought I should say thank you
And maybe an "I'm sorry" while I'm at it
It seems you're always listening to me
Letting me go on and on, whining...
Or complaining, a lot more than I should
And I can never understand why
You just shrug and say it's alright
That you understand, it doesn't matter
Even when it's like that for days on end
It's like you know, somehow, someway
That sooner or later I'll laugh
And change the topic altogether
And act as though our talks never happened
But you never push it, never ask
"Can we talk about this for today?"
And I feel so bad, with everything
That you've had to live through
How you can stand to listen to me
Bitching, complaining...I'll stop
Because I think you get the point
But still, I just don't understand
How you have room in your heart for me
For my problems, my stresses, my worries
And I'm so scared of overloading you
So afraid somehow I'll push you over
I don't mean to, didn't want to do this
But your laugh just pushed me to the brink
And suddenly I HAD to talk, and you listened
And you understood, and most of all, you cared
And I don't know where I'd be right now
If I didn't have you in my life right now
I don't know what I would've done by now
I don't know what I'd be doing right now
Or if I'd even still be here, thank goodness
It's like you saved me from myself, still are
And I wish I could return the favor
And goddammit, I plan on it somehow, someday
But till then, just know how much it means
Knowing that someone, somewhere, cares
And someone, somewhere, thinks I matter
Even if it's an illusion of the mind