You know I think you are beautiful
I am so proud you were given to me
So proud to look at your smiling face
and know you are my baby
And I know that he hurt you
with all the things he let you see
I realize I should have been more watchful
and kept you close to me
I know that when I made him leave
I should have never let him return
I know that it was a lesson
I shouldn’t have repeatedly had to learn
I am sorry my baby girl
I am sorry for all the pain
sorry for all the years our lives
were clouded by rain
I am sorry I chose my wedding vows
over the tears in your eyes
I am sorry I ignored your pleading
and turned a back on your cries
I thought that I could fix him
that he would be brand new
I know now all I did
was help break you too
And I know it’s my fault
that you are a daddy’s girl
my fault for letting you
fall head first into his world
and I am sorry for all the lies I told
when the questions of life you began to ask
sorry about the pain I know you felt
when you saw me without the mask
I am sorry baby girl
for the hypocrite I have proven myself to be
but all I’ve ever wanted is for you
to become a better version of me
I know you have doubted my love
and at some times lost respect
but the next time these thoughts cross your mind
please just stop and reflect
You are my baby girl, and I am sorry…
JayLynn
Copyright 2004 All Rights Reserved
Author notes
My mother and I don't have the worlds worse relationship. At this point it is pretty damn good. But as a child... there are a lot of things I blamed her for that I felt as if she could have fixed and saved me from. And my mother doesn't say sorry. She words things in a certain way and you may get a hint that she felt bad for whatever but she doesn't say sorry. I think the only "person" she apologizes to is God and for her that is enough.
I wrote one about my dad too because our relationship was a little harder than my moms but the contest called for mother and daughter stuff so... This is the link to the dad one if you want to check it out. allpoetry.com/poem/464441
Written January 24th, 2004
In a list
A contest entry
- "Why can your brother be more like you?" by CherryRain.
300 points, ended February 16, 2004, 9 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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This one is as great as the one for your dad. I really think it is good that you at least got to get it out in the open. This is very good. Good luck in the contest.
~*Misty*~
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To CherryRain,
I don't know if it was theraputic in the sense that it made it all better but it did allow me a freedom. I have never really voiced my feelings on the issues between my mother and myself. My mother always made sure that the basic needs of house and home were taken care of. I KNOW she sacrificed a lot. But there were a lot of other things that we suffered through and because of the things I know she sacrificed I have always felt ungrateful in some ways when I think these thoughts. So I guess writing it was theraputic in the sense of the freedom but not in the way of resolving any of it.
Thanks for holding a cool contest. I don't think I have ever entered one so fast.
~JayLynn
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wow i felt so many emotions. Im left speechless knowing I can relate to this poem. Thanks for sharing. Hopes u win. ~amanda
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Very well done. Full of emotions and details. Frome start to finish I felt "you should have said this mom." This is very important to me in this contest.
I'm very glad that you relationship with your mother is doing well. I would like to know if this write was theraputic at all.
Thank you so much for entering. Good luck and God bless!
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