Im a thief, I'm a liar, Im vengeful and a cheat.
Im violent, suicidal, Im lazy, and I sneak.
Im selfish, cold hearted, I'm cocky, and conceited.
I'm Dirty, I'm devious, perverted, and mistreated.
Im careless, I'm wreckless, immature and untamed.
Im weak, Im a punk, and of ma actions Im not ashamed....
I'm Self-interested, undisciplined with my cell always on vibrate
I’m indifferent, insensitive and with your feelings, I wont relate
I don’t care about your needs and I manipulate how you feel
Plenty of times I've left you pondering the definition of real
There have been countless days I've left you to worry over and again
Disrespectful and volatile, but baby that was me then...
I'm honest, I'm fair, understanding, more peaceful.
suicidal thoughts now extinct from my mind,
my laziness, sneakiness, selfishness, my cockiness
are now apparitions of traits left behind
my vanity is now humility, I steal jus words now for my poetry
my heart is now cozy, no longer below zero will this temple ever be!
I'm careful, selfcontrolled, I've matured greatly in the mind
I'm stronger, I'm fearless, for God has cleansed me with a shine
I’ve stopped running the streets and learned feelings are not toys
I listen more, and when I open my mouth, you no longer hear noise
I finally have compassion for others and the icebox has thawed
Docile and faithful, never have I been so close to unflawed
Calm in the mind and of a good spirit, I‘m of pleasurable company
And when my name is called on the street, bad company is not what I see
Respectful of myself, and to others, fully covered I can cause a ‘Wow’
Hardly impatient, nowadays I take my time, yo this is me now...
Tell me can you still compare me to the person I used to be?
Can you finally let go of my past as I have and love me for me?
I know what I've done and tried to do but I can't undo my mistakes
Can you let it go, and just forgive me, and no longer throw it in my face?
Can you stop telling me no one will ever want me or love me
because of my past, what I've done and used to be?
Can you look at me now as compared to me then and see
that I am not my past and my past is not me?
Yeah, I know I said you were my heart, yet when you called, I didn’t make time to get back
And I remember not letting you in, because I thought what you didn’t know wouldn’t impact
I know now that if it were not for you, I would be ready to self-destruct
That you coming into my life had to be more than coincidence, more than mere luck
I wish there were a way that I could give back all the hours of sleep you’ve lost
There’s gotta be a way I can repay and change what my behavior has cost
When I realized how much I've hurt you, it was like a trauma to my heart
If it’s any consolation at all, it’s because of you that I've made this new start…
Author notes
Nobody should be treated as the person they used to be. The past is over and what's done is done, especiall if you love that person. Hey gentleman, never throw a lady's past in her face and make her feel bad and ashamed. Same with you ladies. No one IS their past and if they haven't changed, oh well. But they're a totally different and better person NOW, then you need to let it go... ESPECIALLY if they already have.
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