Suicide Mind

Things cross my mind
And I don’t know where they come from
My mind thinks like its something else
As if it knows the unknown
It shows me things I don’t want to see
It makes me hear things I don’t want to hear
I’m lost in the craziest thoughts
And I don’t understand
I’m lost
I’m confused
Someone save me here
As I sit in my room
My sanity is stolen slowly away
It’s going somewhere far away
Where I can not retrieve it
The walls are closing in on me
My mind is stretching out
The world seems so far away
But I'm in my own little world
My wrists change from time to time
I draw my minds pictures upon them
You wouldn’t understand them
Just think I'm insane
But I am... so its okay
Right?
I press this knife upon my skin
My life is so messed up
I’ve had this picture-perfect image
Of how things should always be
But the world couldn’t live up to it
To much hate, no more love
Were all doomed
To misery
But I cut away from the outside
To let the pain from the inside seem out
I have no one to depend on to be there
To catch my pain and wash it away
So I leave a puddle on the floor
My blood falls as quick as the lies falling from peoples mouth
It hardens as slowly as it takes people to tell the truth
No one knows what its like
Suicide
That’s what the unknown is
That’s what my mind has known all along
It’s what I'm destined to be
Some poor pathetic person who takes away their misery
While taking away their life
I’m trying to rid the world of pain
I’m trying to bring happiness
Why could I see before I died
That killing myself was bringing forth more
I’ve brought pain upon the few who loved me
And took away more happiness
But ill take that knife and stab my heart
I’ll make you cry
While I lay there and die
You see my body as a total mess
Kind of like my life
it’s weird how things compare these days