Sleepless nights
Flashbacks give constant frights
Painful, too real
Keep freezing my blood
Like he's inside me again
Hurting
Disgusting
Feel dirty
So much hate within
Take myself away
Get away from this pain
Dreaming of a safe beach
Listen to the waves
I can see a girl being attacked
She looks just like me
I see whats hes doing to her
She looks dead
I feel sorry for her
How did she let herself get in this situation?
He's really evil
Cold eyes with pure hate
Doesn't stop for long
Then he carries on
He doesn't even stop to think of how hes so wrong
I want to help her but cant reach out,
I cant move
Then i realise its me he's hurting
It's not another girl
Wish he would kill me now
Get it over and done with
Feel like I'm going to die
He's r*ping me of my dignity and pride
Back to the beach I drift away
This is my safe place
I want to stay
I see jack, childhood imaginary friend
Face of an angel
So elegant and sweet
Throwing pebbles into the clear blue sea
Watching the ripples go on and on
Counting them one by one
When will this hell be over
When will he stop?
Then I suddenly go blank
I black out
Wake up to see him sat in a chair
Offering me a cigarette
Like everything was fine
Numb with pain
I forgot the time david hurt me in this way
When I was 14
Why does it have to happen again?
I see the blood
I feel the throbbing
At home now sat in the shower
trying to scrub the filth away
For over an hour
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Heart wrenchingly painful write, so strong and powerful. I wish you the best of luck in my contest and thank you for entering this piece. Keep up the awesome work. Your a fighter stay stong. Spread the awerness.
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De ja vu. I know the feeling. Be strong, dear.
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An all too real, and similar account of my own situation.Thank you for sharing this sad and wonderful write. May it bring healing.
Serene
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This does not need revising... Beautiful girl... Just remember i'm here, yeah?
God. What Shit ness.
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Written with such strong emotion! Tears came to my eyes as I read this piece. Thank you for sharing and I can relate very strongly with your angst. I surely do hope that you have personally dealt with this tragedy to make you a stronger human being?
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"I feel the throbbing
At home now sat in the shower
trying to scrub the filth away
For over an hour"
brought the tears welling, this contest is getting harder and harder to read through. there is so much filth in the wordl, but you are still here, still with us...
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plese let me know when you are finished I would love to read what you have written. Thanks
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hi this is just one full of thoughts at the moment i am also going to put another one up if allowed x
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