[ would it have killed you to understand? ]

would it have killed you to understand?
to listen?
The saddest thing is that it wouldn't have-
it would have saved you,
but you'd rather hurt yourself with impatience
anger,
and heartbreak that never needed to be.
He was lost
and with you he couldn't find his way
so he tried
for the good of both of you
to find his way back, in hopes that you
in love, as you said you were,
would still be there,
heart patient and waiting,
but he returned to find you gone,
having refused to wait for him
to fight his demons, find his way, and love you again.
So he's lost again, and so are you.
No, he shouldn't have left, but also,
he shouldn't have stayed just then.
You both needed him to clear his head,
and he couldn't bear to put you in the danger
of being at his side when he did so.
But you both wanted,
needed
for you to be there once the fight was done,
but for some reason you shut him out
and left him to burn alone,
while you lit yourself aflame.
So my question, sad darling,
is did you ever love him at all?