hypocrite

It's the unmistakable glaze &
that telltale smell;
when everything is suddenly more
hilarious than spilling your
own blood for the sake of feeling alive.

[at least pretend you didn't want to get caught.]


So let me know truly which
is more painful:

the bitterness of reality & the taste of your tears
while sleep is busy evading you

or

the knowledge that everything you feel right now is
fabricated bullshit [& you'll feel worse in the morning]?

But fuck it, life was never kind.
So what better way to get revenge
for the betrayal and hurt than to
send that vodka screaming down your throat
[& wait for that instant warm flush in your cheeks.]

hypocrite:
noun; a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold in order to conceal his or her real feelings or motives.


[& I thought I was supposed to be the
out-of-control kid.]