Shinning scars.
Illuminated fear.
Anxiety lurking in the absence of comfort.
Scarlet discretion lighting cheeks.
Warmth drained by rain falling.
Careful beauty lost amongst the insecurity.
Lust loiters and knocks me over.
Knees buckling, I fall.
Fallen for you.
Disappearing in the depths of desire.
Losing face, gaining impulse.
Friends lost,
Due to abandonment.
Guilt skulks but doesn’t surface,
For I am not truly sorry.
If circumstances were to repeat,
Then willingly, I would achieve the same disappointment.
For he is but everything I need.
Empty yearning without his presence.
This endless pastime of charades,
Builds endurances but increases woe.
How can I pretend you come before him?
Bitter truths echo harsh reality.
Fair, It is not.
Indulgent, too much so.
My pool of excuses has run dry in this threatening precipitation.
I apologize if I cannot be there for you now,
Because he is my first priority.
And I search to find your silhouette,
But you have left.
Where is your sparkling laugh?
You have gone.
Could I hardly blame you?
Yes, yesterday hurt.
The blade of their words did not pierce my skin,
Yet the uncreated wound remains still.
But it is now I feel the pain.
I feel the stabbing of silenced rejection.
Does friends not mean anything?
Please stand with me, for I have not replaced you.
No, I have found someone,
Someone that doesn’t merely ease the ever-present ache of life,
But banishes it altogether.
So do not blame me for being lost.
It is you I’m losing.
And I’m sorry, but I cannot leave him.
He is the string that holds these fragile stitches together.
He is the liquid that quenches the burning flame in my throat.
You’ve always said you wanted happiness for me.
Well now I have all that and more.
Author notes
ok so i ditched friends for my boy-friend. and yes i do do it alot. but can you honestly blame me? he is all i could ever want. and he wants me back.
A contest entry
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HONESTY is the BEST policy, but it also HURTS the most... so come on... {HURT me}
Comments
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good poem and good luck. option?
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This was an amazing write, and I can definitely relate. You just have to somehow find a balance for both your friends and your boyfriend and just hope that your friends are accepting of the fact you'll want to spend time with him. But this was a lovely poem, I really enjoyed it.
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...Why did you ditch your friends when you could have kept them AND your boyfriend? I'm rather confused.
Oh well. Your life, not mine.
As for the poem, this one was quite pretty. Great job. -
i think in time you'll be able to balance having both. being that ive been single for most of my life but my friends have been in relationships, it does burn a bit when they ditch me, because its like hey i was here first and most of the time it seems like they forgot i exist...
but, at the same time i definatly understand what its like to be rapped up in another person especially if they want you back. its the best feeling in the world and why wouldnt you want to have that happy feeling every moment of your life. i hope it all works out for you!
and again, fantastically written! im still working on changing my vocabulary, to express how much i like your writing, i know im sounding like a broken record =p
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