parris island

Traveled the distance to see your face
maybe that was a mistake
Greeted with wary eyes
What have i done wrong
what did i not do
what is upsetting you

Have i gone to far
i pray i'm not intruding
giving way to cold

there is chill in your embrace
as if it were forced
there's still worry written on your face
but no longer to me but something else

it wasn't me you were looking for
am i not what you want anymore...
how could this be??

I reach up too late to touch your face your gone
the crowd engulfs that which i love
i sink to tears...

waiting wanting praying planning for so long...
and now your gone
i feel like i was the fool all along

sweep away to the outside world where i can gain control
pacing, wiping away stained cheeks

i don't recognize you
your not my one
the one i called teacher,friend, hero, lover
how could this be???

Anger builds as i wait
What have they done to you
I'm at the point to scream

you reemerge... my mind vanishes again
i cry, reach forward with my heart
why can't i reach you???

the time moves slow as this day passes by
I close the distance between me and you
but shuffle to the side to make room for the one that seem more important to you...

i'm left behind.

i wait for a moment to say
something for only you to know
i hold back tears as i grab your hand
you look at me as tho i was a ghost
something you may fear

As quickly as we shared that glance
it is stolen away
you are in pure fame

The skys open up and mirror my mood
sheltter never came so soon
but now theres no room to get to just me and you

"are you mad at me" psh as if he didn't know

how much this meeting hurt me

i cant take the way she gets in between us everytime i get close

why does she hate me so...

i look at him the pain striking his face

i sadden

" i still love you, i missed you" with a sad smile i squeeze his hand

i do understand

In the car now we drive around the bend

he'll squeeze my hand every now and then

i feel better ut its still not enough

i wanted so badly to have him smile at me and squeeze me

let me know that im still the only one

on the way home i dont stop crying till we get to the hotel

i understand

he was overwhelmed

but still nothing feels like it will ever be the same

your not the one i thought i knew

your not the one that made all my wishes come true

your not the one i wanted to see

but you look just like he...

Day 2

I cant find you  in the group but i know where you are

when it is time i rush the field

your standing alone

its actually a relief

i can speak to you alone

"i'm proud of you baby, i love you"

i hug you even though i'm not supposed to

sprisingly you hug me back and sneak a kiss under my ear

your parents catch up

photos taken

and we are forever casted to that form

the day passes but doesnt seem to move as quickly as planned

Lunch with everyone was occward but tollerated

we are going home... i forced myself to fit into your arms even though they were still new to me

we slept hand in hand

pressed so firmly to one another

heaven!

I love you

i love you

i love you forever more!!!!!!!!

 finally a break in the woe

a break in the insanity that clouded my judgement

Jordan i am yours forever more