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Just an Ordinary Day

I'm sad.

I'm very sad today, and I don't know why.

I've been like this all morning, not feeling like I can talk to anyone, and just wanting to sit alone with my thoughts, all jumbled up like knotted string.

So, here I sit, undoing the knots, trying to figure out where I got lost in my own mind and memories.

Here am I, feeling so alone, and just realizing for the first time in so long how truly lonely I am.

So, what to do?

What can I do, but go on living and hoping that it works out okay?

What can I do but pray?


And I'm so sad... 

So very sad today,

Thinking about being alone,
And wanting someone there, someone to love me,
And someone to love.

There I sit, knowing I'd never objectify myself enough to date those boys who look like men, 9 years my elders, who tell me of their affections.

And there I sit, hating myself for it.  Hating the constant, self-imposed isolation.

And here I sit, thinking about his eyes, and knowing he doesn't deserve what she puts him through, and wondering if he's the one,

And hoping he's the one,

And hoping he's not the one,

And wishing someone would just take my hand and pull me out of the confusion that is my life.

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Constant Craving

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  • whispernthedark Greeters member
    October 7, 2008

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    Waiting to be rescued, this is a great write. Thank you for entering the contest. Good luck.


    whisper


  • Dalaney gold member
    October 2, 2008

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    just curious - do you normally write fv? this reads like a story (a good one) because of the form it is
    written in, yet the internal rhyme is there. hmmmm.
    thank you for entering. i hope you aren't lonely.

    love, lane


  • stylization
    September 28, 2008
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    This is sweet. I like the way you did it, in sentances but broke it up like a poem. I write like this sometimes, but I always end up leaning toward the prose end of a prosepoem instead of the poem end, as you've done here. Beautiful write, best of luck in the contests!


  • IrishLove
    September 27, 2008

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    ......i'll hold your hand.......

    eehee i love you and don't want you to feel lonely. there's plenty of ppl you can talk to. mry and andrea are still there for you, just so you know.

    <3


  • csmmoms2
    September 26, 2008
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    Lovely

    Your work flows with thoughts and dreams and fears that all young women have. A very nic write.


  • LadyJane13
    September 26, 2008

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    I like this one alot!Lonliness,love and ongoing hope are 3 things which go together - life's faithful companions.Your write reminds me of how I still feel at times ,always wondering if he is the one or not,as I said ever hopeful.Well done

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