My Light

I am lost in this darkness
In and out of this pain
Between two worlds
It’s here that I’m struggling
You are my light that I’ve been seeking
Only you make me feel whole
Just one touch babe
And you complete me

In and out of different states of mind
Thinking in black
Then thinking in white
I’m so demanding
Then very distant
I lose sense of reality
Don’t know my identity
Re-saving me from this black hole

Its haunting me and swallowing me up
I felt like I was dieing inside
You were the truth that I’ve been seeking
Most of my life I’ve been lying
Hiding behind my mask
My heart and soul were shattered glass
My mood changes all the time
Thoughts constantly reeling

Career ideas always changing
Didn’t know what to do with my life
You’re the light I’ve been trying to find
All that searching and now you’re mine
I yearn you find my worthy
Of the right to stand beside you
Of your truth and passion
Of the right to sleep in your arms

Keeping me safe and warm
All I wanted to do before
Was to run away
Hide my face from the light of day
You try to help me
But I can’t even help myself
When getting better
Means getting worse first

But you are still here for me
Standing beside me
Not ashamed
You are my eyes
Without you I wouldn’t see
Guiding me through the difficult times
You hold me close and I feel your love
You are my hero, you hold out your hand

I clasp with the strength I have left
When I feel empty
You fill me with your strength
Your smile lifts me right up
I love you with all my heart
You put up with ever so much
I’m up and down like a yo-yo
Scared of feeling abandoned

Even though that’s not so
I still need your constant touch
What is it with my mind
In and out of paranoia, anxiety
Depressive and manic phases
You are my knight in shining armour
How much I admire
I don’t want to disagree

Squabble or fall out
The burning frustration
Inside of me
Just wants to explode
Warning without!
I adore you, I need you, I love you
You are my one light
That actually makes me feel alive