My Lord Is Peace

    I recall crying as a little child, in confusion of what to do or who to trust, because those whom I trusted decieved and abused their authority over the defenseless.  Feelings of abandonment brought on desires to attach regardless of the outcome.  There are those that see my torment in their minds eye as they gaze upon the superficial scars although the true torture lies within.
    Many nights spent bound in hatred, hating anyone offering what little comfort they could, knowing their motives were not for my welfare but their own dirty little minds.  Hands probing, touching, sending waves of anger throughout my body, while doing nothing to show emotions whatsoever for I was truly dead in my heart.
    Losing all faith in anything and everyone yet I longed for
a savior to help me escape the dark world of abuse and wrongful behavior, yes even as a child I knew what was happening was wrong but, could not find any solution to stop the madness, until as if by some miracle as I was being violated, words came out of my mouth by their own power.  Dear Lord, save me from this mess in my life for I am unable to fix this.  I believe I am a child of God so why does God allow me to be treated so poorly?
    Miraculously the perpetrator was removed from within me and never returned.  A wave of peace came over me unlike anything I had ever experienced before.  There I lay shivering and whimpering and an apparition appeared before me telling me that he had come because I asked for him.  All of my life's burdens were now his burdens and that within him I have found my peace.  Yes I have every intention to remain living in the Peace of My Lord because truly the love of God is not of the world.