Abused and broken
I am all alone
Carrying with me this shameful burden
Trying to figure out what I did wrong
Tortured and violated
Living painful memories
Day to day
I try to retrace my footsteps
Discover how I became such easy prey
I was just a child
Yet old enough to understand
What he did was unforgivable
25 at the time yet still not a man
The terror is with me still
Every night when I try to sleep
And I get a painful reminder
In the mornings when I kiss my son on his cheek
I did not ask for this
And yet I am to blame
How can someone do so much wrong
And never feel one bit of shame
It is my burden to carry
Threw this life I fight to live
Never will I allow it to break me
These truths I vow to give
Sex is always rape
If its non consensual
And the pain that it will cause
Is always memorable
Author notes
I wrote this poem the night that I Brought my son home from the hospital. I was only 15 when I got raped and pregnant. soon after I turned 16 which is the age I was when I had my son .
A contest entry
- Stop Child Abuse - September Contest by Page Shut down.
600 points, ended October 11, 2008, 6 entries
Bronze trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Raw emotion expressed with feeling and sometimes brutal sensitivity that haunts the reader. You were not to blame in any way since you were misled by someone who should have known better. I have this gut feeling that you are strong and a battler so I expect you to find peace and fulfilment in the future.
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a brilliant poem I think your poem is wonderful the emotions are very deep and very raw and you have painted a true reality of child abuse the memeries never go away but we can learn to live with them because the past does not eqaul the future we cope with our courage to never let it happen again I can relate to your words from my childhood I thank you for sharing your poem and understand that this was so hard to write thank you for entering the contest and good luck
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wow powerful story, and i just want to take a second and say god bless your story is so strong i plan on having a job of catching those who hurt and cause the pain put upon you, your poem is a powerful write in which all should read great job and good luck
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Good entry.Emotional and gets down to the core of this sad problem in homes. I commend you for shearing this. Thanks again.
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Oh hun. Wow.
I can relate so strongly to this on a personal level, having been raped and had a son by it at 16 only my son died at birth
I feel for you
♥
Thank You for your entry in Stop Child Abuse - September & Best of Luck
Stay safe
~Manda
Co-Judge
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