I'm not like them.
I don't belong.
I won't ever fit in here.
They're confident, and sure of themselves.
I'm unsure and anxious, but I do the same thing they do.
Act.
They act because they want to be in the spotlight.
They want to be stars.
They want to be noticed.
I act because I despise myself.
Because I hate everything I am.
Because, for a moment, I don't have to be me.
I'm someone else entirely.
So as I hold my script in shaking hands,
And read the lines of my character,
I for a moment at least feel happy, or sad, or whatever I'm supposed to.
I no longer hate myself,
Because I'm no longer me.
I'm no longer numb.
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