I Am

I am

Point blank
Empty space
Weightlessness
Nothingness
Where is

Is

If where
seems to be
nowhere

An empty whiteness
that keeps
all out
and solitude
safely, securely in

How ironic
I protect myself
yet have no
self

you would not love me
if you knew
who i was
at least I assume

I wouldnt know
only fools know
and i am
not

What do I have
If I do not have
my own being
my own truth
my own

a Goddess upon
pillars of love
found through fear
a Goddess of
what

amazing
astounding
powerful potential
locked somewhere
deep within

the empty black point
that leads down
the rabbit hole
into me
or what is left
of Katherine

who never really was
but is
or more like
could be
stargazer lilly of the valley
valley of home and healing
healing with love
through loving the fear
and finding self
with the guiding light
of love

I am
Fear
Love
Katherine