I’m pretty big for a little boy, and vice versa.

I ran from one corner of town
To another
In 58 seconds.
I don’t count very well
And I’m pretty fast
But still,

You do the math.

I skipped school today
‘Cause I’m going to be a rock star
And get on TV
And I have to practice;
But I watched a couple of movies
Instead.

I don’t know if I’m lazy
Or uninspired, or afraid
Of failing,
I don’t know which one’s worse
Cause it don't matter where you are-

You want more, and you can usually adapt
Whether you’re charging
into black
Or the red.

Does it matter what’s worse
When everything’s just, bad?

I don’t know, I guess I’ll go
With the better.

Even when it’s all nothing
I’d still rather have one plus a decimal scoops of icecream
Than juts plain ol’ one.
I’d rather have my favorite flavor
But I’ll take anything, ya know?

I’m having an affair with the married
34 year old
Daughter
Of the county drug dealer.

Her husband doesn’t think I’m tough enough-
Maybe he thinks I’m too nice
Or too shy- I brought him lemonade once
And I couldn’t look him in the eyes,
And lover number 2
Hates me.

But then,
I do too.

My brother died of leukemia
When I was seventeen.
I’m still 17
And I still haven’t gotten over it.

When I’m 87
if I still hurt about it
Then that means I’m just rubbin all over the shit
That life dished out,
like it’s for fun
Or something
stupid like that

Some people just love to wallow;
They collect their sorrows
Like marbles in a jar
(the kind that some idiot will spill
And somebody’ll get their goddamn leg
Broken.

But if I’ve completely forgotten
By then
Than I’m just a terrible

Person.

It’s funny how you ramble
When you’re about to do something
You’re afraid of…

I look out the window
And see two birds resting
In a tree
but one is hit with a slingshot,
and dies,
Someone is riding their bike
But they fall off,

A caterpillar is trying to break out of it’s self made tomb,
But when trying to get better-
We don’t always succeed,
Do we?

My watch and my radio are broken-
I can hear that School is getting out now,
My car is out of gas,
My parents don’t like me,
I’m bad at football,
I try to gaze at the brightest clouds
but they seem to be
floating away.
I keep looking out the window
As the gun says goodbye!
it's quiet.