So times been lying to me I see
pretending it's older than it is
Looked to me to be a century old
maybe two or three
but it hasn't even been two years
since I walked away from you
and now I'm in these arms, of his
I can pretend the pain has faded
like wind whispers at night
I can act like fears never chase me
as shadows swallow light
but it's all a lie
& Baby I'm sorry, but I
I just can't pretend I'm (over you) over him
I keep twisting to look back again
It's not that I feel that warmth in my heart,
but I see all the scars on my soul
Memories of promises nobody kept
& now you're promising me
The world
will never be the same
after all that we've been through
and forgiveness has a new name
All my love for you
If only the earth could stop turning
just for a minute
to remind me my feet are still on the ground
it's so dangerous flying
You see time has been lying to me
I thought it'd been so long
since he was "all that I wanted"
& now it's always you
the only one to hold me
I ever thought I knew,
but time's been lying
leaving none left to heal
& now you're all that I have to hold on to
prove to me once
that it's real.
Author notes
=[ I thought my ex & I had broken up years ago, but I looked at old emails & it seems it's been less than 2 years.... & I met my bf now only a few months after & then I'm sitting not remembering why we didn't get together sooner & avoid a lot of pain we went through, but now I remember & I wish I could make him understand how much the past can affect your trust now..not only in others, but in yourself. I haven't written in a long time, but reading those emails just made me have to write how I feel. I hope this isn't too bad....
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