it's been a while since I last wrote,
i used to write nearly every day.
but it seems so much disappears with goodbye,
and I've let inspiration slip away.
i've spent too much time trying to please others,
i've gone and lost myself.
i don't know who I am, I don't know where I'm going-
i've become some lonely puppet left forgotten on the shelf.
still, I'm never good enough for them,
and I don't know how to just be me.
i can't feel safe, I can't feel comfortable,
and that's no way to be.
my screams still go unheard, my prayers unanswered,
as if God is telling me I'm only good for sin.
i can't do anything right, I always have to be wrong-
i don't belong even in my own skin.
if there's one thing i've learned,
if you don't bet you can't lose.
but what's there to bet when you have nothing anyways?
it becomes that this dark life is something i choose.
it's getting hard and harder to find a reason to go on,
as i only continue to fall down and under.
i'm a broken toy that can't ever be fixed,
i'm a mistake, a flop, someone's careless blunder.
i'm not someone people look up to,
i'm not someone people show adoration.
i'm the one left behind, invisible to their eyes,
and now I'm finding...there's just no more inspiration.
Ask me no questions, I'll tell you no lies.
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Heyyyyyyy.... don't worry Macckie, we all go through that time when we feel that way!
anyways, in case you wanted to know, I thought this was one of your best poems. I like it!
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I understand what you're saying hun. I think so many people can relate to what you wrote here. Great write. Xds-gX
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ZOMG, it's brilliant!
So deep and powerful.. very inventive (which is ironic since its about not being to find inspiration)
if it's actually about you, the only advice i can give is just be patient,, maybe listen to some music? i often find that my inspiration comes from just little things in life that inspire just a single line.. which then turns into a poem with a bit of work
so i hope you find your inspiration and stop thinking of yourself like that 
my favourite lines here are "i don't fit in my own skin" and the line about having nothing to bet anyways.. awesome stuff. Your writing is inspirational (again, more irony
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Thanks for sharing this
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