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Lonely once again

Fighting to hold back on a stream of tears.
I feel utterly insecure.
Will my broken soul find prosperity through the fears that drive me.
The feelings i bear are inevitably frightening.
Undermining all possiblity of a life that is happy.
What's to see?
The wholeness about me, yet the emptiness that haunts my burdoned thoughts.
Rendering me helplessly.
Steering my devoted thoughts away from positivity.
The negativity is sinking in.
Masking my desperate pleas for security with a fake but believable grin.
Trying hard to forgive myself for all my future sins,
that I have yet to commit.
Lonliness has my emotions in a fearful tight grip.
A tremble comes to my lips.
As I close my eyes and dip my  mind into a dream that can only be fantasized.
Touching the spot on my forehead where my third eye, (the minds eye)
can push away the negativity that will lead to my emotional demise.
Trying to find a comprimise between my two sides.
But still, I am lost throught the sea of lies.
Watching younge children cry and seeing all loved ones die.
Dying spirtually weakening their physicality.
While mentally deteriorating to a place where their true personality starts decomposing.
And more lonliness sets in.
I will not unmask my my grin.
Always needing to hide true feelings that come from within.
Just accepting all the horrible truths that bring my reigning positive streak to an end.
I feel lonely once again.
When will these feelings of joy that I long for begin?
The one soul that my soul longs to linger with is slowly slipping in and out of my endless grip.
The passion that comes from two sets of lips is what I have,
but why do I miss it so much?
I thought this was just my change in luck.
But the closing of distance has made me feel more distant.
My heart is vulnerably struck by a love that I believe so much in.
Now I feel stuck.
Stuck trying to forever find a compatible comprimise.
Stuck in a lonely world of endless ties.
Fighting hard to keep these tears from streaming out of my eyes.
Crying out desperately to finally be surprised.

 

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Copyright 2008

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  • storiesuntold gold member
    September 26, 2008

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    Such a deep heartfelt piece here

    I think sometimes when times get hard and we lose loved ones we so need a period to readjust for the light which they left within us from birth weaps as well and one must know to cry as you must but be aware for they are about us in our times of need . Watch and you shall see the beauties they so bring to your sight for they look through our eyes to see their loved ones and will direct you back to the joys we so seak once again . There are many times I feel my Mom the strongest when I look into the nirror and so feel her embrace and hear her whispers upon my mind with such love . Honey thei is nothing in this world that can take your faith away from you if we truly want to see the world beyond for their will be obstacles put in our way as a way to test our faith but dont you see honey God never gives us anything he doesnt thing we cant handle and the stronger the burden is his beliefe of the faith you so posses within . Rise above the hard time and put your probblems in his hands and know through those about you it shall be done in his time though not ours for each day of faith is the seed that does grow within.