Secrets and Lies

Listen I want to tell you something she said
I need to tell you before I am dead
I told a little lie such a long time ago
It started off small and began to grow

I told him I loved him, I didn’t lie
I need to tell the truth before I say goodbye
Watching her face, holding her hand
Seeing her pain, I begin to understand

I loved your father but like a brother
I was desperate for you, I needed to be a mother
I was in love with someone else you see
We couldn’t be together we would have never been free

As I watched her face came alive with a smile
How could she keep this secret for such a long while
She loved another she could never be free
She could never be free because she had me

Who was the other I wondered in my mind
The truth on my mother’s lips she was trying to find
My true love is your aunt Mary, she said with a sigh
I watched as my mother closed her eyes

Your father he knew before we were wed
He had no idea she was  in our bed
Believing the past was buried and gone
Your father he thought we had moved on

My one little lie has haunted my life
As I pretended to be his loyal wife
Now the truth has been told I can rest in peace
The secrets in my mind are now released

I watched my mother take her last breath
I stood in the room feeling bereft
Secrets and lies they tear things apart
She lived my whole life with a broken heart